Scandalous...

I have a really, really, REALLY scandalous goal.  I can hardly believe that I have decided to put it in writing, but I feel compelled to have it out of my head and in writing.  I kind of want to make sure that I keep heading toward the goal, even though it is ridiculously reckless and crazy.  I have done my share of reckless things in my life, but I have been the opposite of reckless for the last 15 years.  Call it a mid-life crisis if you will, I won't argue that. 

Before going in to the scandalous plan, let me also mention some other goals that I currently have.  I want to do two or more of the following:

• lose at least 50 more pounds
• learn to ballroom dance--well
• go back to school to get my Masters--and ultimately, my doctorate--in Psychology
• stop volunteering at my kids' schools so much
• get a tattoo of the word "Courage" somewhere on my body
• write a book

OK, none of those are outrageous.  Actually, they are all beneficial to me and to my becoming a more secure person as I get older.  I have lost a lot of my confidence of the past many years, and I desperately want and need to get it back.

Ready for the scandal?

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I want to sleep with a famous person before I turn 40 in a year and a half.

Now, having a goal of becoming a star-fucker is bad enough, but what makes it worse?

I am married and have been for 14 years.
I have two children.
The main person I have in mind is 14 years younger than me....
...but I am not limiting myself to that person.

Most of my goals above are in the quest for the ultimate goal.

Yep, I'm a whore.

Maybe I'll never write about this again.  Maybe I'll start writing about it in the quest to make this goal the book I want to produce.  Maybe I'll get over myself and start living in the real world again.

I guess we'll wait and see.